Eleven years ago, I saved her. I loved her. But they took me away from her and locked me up. For two years, all I could think about was her. She consumed me. Took up every room in my head and gave me something to focus on, knowing I would see her soon.
Nine years ago, I watched her as she walked down the aisle and into the arms of a man who wasn’t me. My brother. I left my home and never looked back.
Now, I’m staring at seven letters, each envelope stamped with one word in bold, red ink: URGENT.
I have no choice but to go back home. Seeing her will be the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. But in order to reconcile with my past, I have to face my present. Even if the thought of seeing her, knowing that she is out of my reach, kills me.
I have no idea what awaits me, but I can only hope that the demons of my past will finally be buried and put to rest.
**Due to possible triggering descriptions of self-harm, and some sexual situations this book is not recommended for anyone under the age of 17 years old**
*ARC provided in exchange for an honest review*
This blurb intrigued me so much, as did the cover, which is seriously so pretty. This was a difficult book, because it deals with some intense issues, such as abuse, domestic violence, self-harm, sensory impairments, cancer. And those are only the bigger ones. I think maybe there was a bit too much of everything, and focusing only on fewer issues would have been better, though.
The book is set both in the present and the past. We see Cole going back home for the first time after nine years since Nor married his brother, Josh, who’s dying. He finds out a lot has changed since he’d last been home, and that he’s missed on so much. Then we go back to the past; Nor and Cole’s story started when she moved in the house next to him, and from the first time they saw each other it was clear that they wouldn’t be able to resist the pull between them. Cole is quiet and sweet, and has the most captivating eyes Nor has ever seen, he’s also deaf but that doesn’t bother her, on the contrary she wants to learn ASL to be able to talk with him. Nor, on the other hand, is fierce and feisty, but there are a lot of secrets behind her eyes. The scars on her wrists only make Cole want to get a laugh or a smile out of her. They build a sweet friendship that soon develops into something more. Nor’s father isn’t really happy about this, though, things get really complicated. You’ll have to read it to find out what happened next.
I mostly enjoyed the whole book, although, particularly in the end there were some scenes I didn’t like at all (Cole’s behavior felt out of character, and made me like him a lot less). It’s a beautiful story, but I kind of felt detached from the characters, I couldn’t feel them in the way I often feel them in this kind of stories. Some dialogues were a bit over the top, especially considering how young the characters were in most of the book.
Overall, it was an enjoyable read, intense and emotional. And I’m curious enough to read the second book for Elon’s story.